Why do we, as a society, let fear rule us?
I always talk about facing my fears and being brave and working on myself but I've been neglecting that. I've been too scared.
What have I been scared of, you may ask?
- I've been too scared that one day Iman will pack up and leave because I've driven him over the edge.
- I've been too scared to let go of the way I've been treated in the past - too scared and dependent on the way boyfriends previously loved me - always trying to prove to me their love when it may not have been there
- I've been too scared to let myself relax
- I've been too scared to face financial fears
- I've been too scared to plan the deep parts of the wedding.
- I've been too scared to face the people who hurt me - perhaps even unknowingly
- I've been too scared to make, and keep, new best friends
- I've been too scared to re-evaluate some relationships in my life
- I've been too scared to give in to Tut and the universe and be love.
- I've been too scared to take a deep breath and let go.
- I've been too scared to be alone.
- I've been too scared to be me.
I'm working on fixing all of this right now - recognizing my actions and my coping methods and forcing myself to face things. I'm working on remembering the things that make me happy when I'm by myself. I'm working on journaling, taking yoga, relaxing. I'm working on looking at the things online that broaden my intelligence, instead of finding things that make me laugh as a means to relieve stress. I'm working on laughing deeper. [Most people who know me very well know that I "quack" when I laugh really hard. Lately, I've noticed that I rarely laugh that hard anymore]. I'm working on reading more and giving back more.
What are you too scared to face? What are you working on to improve yourself?
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