Why do we, as a society, let fear rule us?
I always talk about facing my fears and being brave and working on myself but I've been neglecting that. I've been too scared.
What have I been scared of, you may ask?
- I've been too scared that one day Iman will pack up and leave because I've driven him over the edge.
- I've been too scared to let go of the way I've been treated in the past - too scared and dependent on the way boyfriends previously loved me - always trying to prove to me their love when it may not have been there
- I've been too scared to let myself relax
- I've been too scared to face financial fears
- I've been too scared to plan the deep parts of the wedding.
- I've been too scared to face the people who hurt me - perhaps even unknowingly
- I've been too scared to make, and keep, new best friends
- I've been too scared to re-evaluate some relationships in my life
- I've been too scared to give in to Tut and the universe and be love.
- I've been too scared to take a deep breath and let go.
- I've been too scared to be alone.
- I've been too scared to be me.
I'm working on fixing all of this right now - recognizing my actions and my coping methods and forcing myself to face things. I'm working on remembering the things that make me happy when I'm by myself. I'm working on journaling, taking yoga, relaxing. I'm working on looking at the things online that broaden my intelligence, instead of finding things that make me laugh as a means to relieve stress. I'm working on laughing deeper. [Most people who know me very well know that I "quack" when I laugh really hard. Lately, I've noticed that I rarely laugh that hard anymore]. I'm working on reading more and giving back more.
What are you too scared to face? What are you working on to improve yourself?
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Fear absolutely rules all our lives. I too have been scared of my hubby leaving me and being alone. In the year and a half we have been married, I have worked on this and I think I am finally coming to terms with it and i am not scared anymore. The hubby helped a lot because he HATED that it was always on my mind. I was always imagining myself making him mad enough to leave or at least have major arguments. Anyway, good luck to you on this mission to fix these things you fear!
ReplyDeleteGosh, I love the idea of laughing deeper. When I stopped to think about it, I realize I don't laugh nearly enough. I often let anxiety rule my actions, and it's a difficult thing to deal with. Thank you for sharing this today.
ReplyDeleteI also stopped by to let you know I tagged you in my "Confessions of a Blogger" post, in case you wanted to answer those questions on your blog!
Best,
Danielle
http://awriterinlove.blogspot.com/2013/12/confessions-of-blogger.html
I think a lot of people can relate to this post. I think the one that sticks with me the most is being afraid of being myself. We all need to get over that one.
ReplyDeleteYes! It is so silly! Who else are we going to be? But I like to hide little pieces of myself. I get scared to be vulnerable. I think that I'm doing a pretty good job since I posted this.
ReplyDeleteI am the exact same way with anxiety!!!
ReplyDeleteI sometimes think I have my anxiety handled because I don't have panic attacks as often anymore - but I still let anxiety change my decisions.
Thank you for sharing your fears, too!! I am so happy that you have come to terms with it, and hope to continue on my journey as well!!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much!! yes! Admitting it is the first step, and realizing when I'm doing it! I think I've been doing a good job!
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