The Testing Begins...

I know that I've mentioned before that I have been trying to gain weight because I don't want to be construed as anorexic, nor am I satisfied with how I look. I don't want all of my clothes to be too big...I want to be 100 pounds.

Normally, people want to LOSE it to be that weight. I want to gain it. So, as part of reaching my New Year's Goals we set up an appointment with the internist to do blood tests and try and find out if there is something medically wrong with me.

I had that appointment yesterday. I think that Dr. Siu thinks that we're crazy and thinks that I'm just naturally this way. But we insisted on having the tests since I have lupis, thyroid problems, hypoglycemia, diabetes, etc in my family. So I'm probably going to go and do that on Monday so we can find out ASAP what I am lacking in vitamins etc. After this we're gonna go to a nutritionist so that I can be set up with a diet to gain the weight or just eat healthier. I think it's the only way I'll be able to stick with it.

Dr. Siu also had me do an EKG? ECG? E something G? To test my heart because he said he might have felt some palpitations. AWESOME. But it fits in with what the psychologist said a couple of months ago. She said I might have palpitations which could lead to my panic attacks because I get anxiety about my heart beating weirdly. So, the verdict?

I have heart palpitations. And I have to go to the heart specialist now also. Woo...

Also, I conduct electricity weirdly. sweeeet. hahaha. I love being so weird!!

At first I was thinking to myself, "why do I always have all of these problems. I mean, is it normal for people to have a bunch of psychological disorders (undiagnosed, but still), AND physical issues...think my precancerous cells that are finally gone!"

And then I realized, yeah probably. People just don't go to the doctors and get it checked out usually. I'm such a hypochondriac. Also, my psychological disorders might be caused by the heart palpitations which makes me feel a little bit better.

I suppose we will see. I will keep updating this because it's an interesting journey. I like trying to figure out myself. Both mentally, physically, emotionally. I'm such a sucker for knowing everything.